Friday- Friday.

Yessssss, it is finally Friday. I have a load of homework and umm... homework, ahhh- the life.


As a Muslim, Fridays are important days of the week- ever week. I do not clearly understand why they are, but they just are. As a result to this day, many of my family members gather to ones house and talk about our religion, read the Qur’an, and talk about our week.


This is how it goes. The mother's stay in the living room and: gossip. The men and the children ( cousins and I), go into a room and collectively recite the Qur’an and our uncles lecture about our Dīn (religion). It feels like I am in a night class. No Joke. But sometimes, my uncles talk to about  The Day Of Judgement- which makes me really scared. This is because, in the Qur’an, it states that: The Day Of Judgement is coming soon. My uncles translate what the Qur’an says so we can clearly understand what the words in the quran mean. This is so sad because we should be able to understand what the characters mean without the english translation. So sad. Okayyy, back to the topic...  It gives us a warning about our society and tells us what is going to happen and when. It is very specific. ( like a description essay Valdez would give an 'A' on).


When reading the holy book, it gives me a closer connection to Allah. It tells the stories of Prophet Mohammed (p.b.u.h) and how much he dedicated his life, gave to the poor, and spread the Islamic Religion. He was a great Muslim and a honorable man.


After reading the Qur’an, I wonder if I am doing what God wants me to do? Am i satisfying him? Is he accepting my prayers? Am I doing my prayers correctly? Will I go to heaven or hell? These questions are always lingering in and out of my hand. It never goes away. I hope God he proud of me...
 Are my actions medial to Prophet Mohammed (p.b.u.h)? or fair below the expectations? I am scared.


As a result, these Friday gatherings recollect my spirituality and provide me a closer connection to the supernatural. I hope these Friday's will pass on- generation to generation.

Losing a Friend

These past days have been unbalanced and hectic. I almost forgot we had to do a blog. Thank God for planners...

While reading many blog posts, I came across Amber Gomez's post about one of her friends. It sounded that she was really sad and wanted to back track to the "good times" (when they were close friends), she states:

 And so I cry. And I remember all the good times we had together. And I just pray that if we aren't ever going to have times like that again, then I hope that I will never forget them. And maybe, you never will either.

This part of her blog made me cry and feel really devastated about the friends I lost throughout my life. 

Knowing Amber, she has been through a lot. She is very smart, talented, and an amazing friend. Noticing that she is slowly losing/ or lost a friend makes me feel that I should do something about. When I say, do something about it, I do not mean go over to that person and attack or threaten him in anyway. I mean, talk to her about it and try to establish a plan where she can talk to him or be able to see him more often. Sometimes, a friend you may love may not have the same feeling towards you.

People change...

When knowing someone for many years and instantly change before your eyes may: want new friends, different friends, or want to become a new person. To do so, the person takes away the people he uses to hang with, and change his past self for a new self (if you know what I mean).

When I was in sixth grade, I had a friend who would boss me, and other people around. I became her friend so I can become "popular", "cool", and have the right to make fun of others. After all the insults she gave others and myself, I had to walk away. I felt what she was doing was unreasonable and unfair. So, I hanged out with the other girls. After a few months, the "popular" girl came to us and wanted to apologize towards her past comments. We forgave her, but we did not hangout with her. We wanted her to feel bad about her actions. Looking at her all-alone at lunch, lunch recess, after school, I felt the need to hang with her. I did this because I thought I was going back to the old me. So, during lunch, we talked and talked. She was actually really nice and sweet. I liked her. We later became close friends. 

What I am trying to say is: People change for better, for worse...

I hope your friend and yourself will justify away to hangout or see realize if it was for the better...

Hope you feel better Berrrrr :)

Dougie?

Hey, yo'! can you teach me how to dougie?
I realllllyyy want to learn.
I have been watching a load of video's, but it does not work.
Sooooooooo, i would like someone to teach me how, in person. Face to face.

Ps. who ever is reading this and knows how to dougie, please take into consideration that it will take a lot of patience and perseverance.
Thank you!

Dude, chill.

While looking through Amber Gomez's posts, I found an interesting and unaware topic. Love. This abstract word has many twists and turn's about what people believe it is. Love, hmmm. 

Noticing that Amber was angry toward the freshman's thought's, I was thinking it should be posted once more:

You are freshmen. You are wayyyyy too young to say love is fake. Oh my gosh! You've got me screaming! Love does exist; you just haven't found it yet! Relax and stop depressing the people that ARE in love!

Woe, Amber, that took a lot of... dedication.

Even though I clearly understand where she is coming from, everyone is entitled to an opinion, nuff said.
People have the right to implement their idea about anything, and in this case, Love.

Many people who are in relationships would always say, " I love him/her". They say this because they believe that the person would never leave them and always be by their side. This is not always the case. People have relationships that do not feel like a relationship. Meaning, the guy/girl does not want to hang out with them, they might be really shy, or just not the type of guy; they might love them but the other spouse may not. This turns into hatred and angriness

People have relationships where they loved him/ her but the other did not. This automatically turns the person who is in love- angry and humiliated. They had so much love for him/ her that they did not realize if the other spouse did as well, (maybe, some of the freshman's, had a similar scenario, and soon after- they believed love is not real).

Amber, I am happy you are in love, but you have to take into consideration that everyone does not (or did not) have the same feelings as you. You may be a lucky one. In which, your spouse love's you as much as you love him, but that is not the same to the six billion people on this earth. I guess what I am trying to say is: love has its twist's and turn's and changes people's belief on it.

This fundamental word can create many debates upon ones thoughts.

Ps. " Love don't cost a thannnggg," I really wanted to put this in my paragraphs, i just did not know where.

Peace Out!

Bruh, Bruh.

I cannot believe the amount of test's we had today; it was insane!

Anyways...

Here I go. I am sitting down with the brother on the right side and my sister on the other. Furthermore, my dad is in the living room watching a soccer tournament in Dubai, they are screaming so loud I cannot concentrate on my post. So if my bog sound's weird it is not my fault. 

Anyhow...

I cannot believe my brother is in the sixth grade. I feel like he school is in elementary school forever. Even-though that would be weird, do not want my brother to grow up (woe, I feel like a parent). He used to go to Shelton's Primary Educational Center (S.P.E.C), but then the school closed down. My sister, brother, and I went to that school for nine year. I was private. We were rich then... Now, he goes to Academy of Alameda, I could not he is in middle school.  He was so excited on the first day of school; He wanted to be there an hour earlier. I had the same feelings as him, but I wanted to go to school early so I can have a tour of the school and understand my campus so I would not get lost. He just wanted to open his locker and make new friends. We are such opposites. Friends were the last priority I wanted to exhibit or maybe the last thing I wanted to think about. 

Today, I went to my brother’s school for the first time. He gave me explicit instructions on how to open a longer because I have not opened one since eighth grade... so sad. His instructions were clear that I finally opened the lock; I was proud of myself. Then, I tried it once more and it did not work- stupid lock.

In the end, I have concluded my brother is growing up. He will never stay young, not even if you try to trick him about his age (which I have tried before... did not go well). It is time to let go.

Ps. did you notice I did not tell you my brother's name? Well, here it goes, *drum rolls*... Ahmed Ahmed. Pretty neat, huh? Or not?

In-Class Essay- Q's Characterization

Thesis: Q's most defining characterization is that he constantly misunderstands (and misunderstood) by other characters.

Q jumps over the obvious. He wrongfully mistakes what people say to him. A girl, Fern- Flower and Q-the dinosaur, were with each other near a tree. They were talking and Fern - Flower tells Q a dream she recently had. The dream was about a dinosaur attacking her. She was not scared, and actually liked him, (101). Q's interpretation of her dream is very abstract, he says: 

" Fern- Flower desired nothing more than to be assaulted. This was a moment for me to embrace her. But the dinosaur they image was too different from the dinosaur I was, and this made me more different and timid," (101).

This demonstrates, Q's assumptions towards Fern- Flower's dream. He believes that she willingly wants to get assaulted. He knows that he is not that type of person, so he feels more awkward and submissive. Even though Fern- Flower's intentions was not to create insecureness to him. He supposedly thinks she is. Q's wrong reactions repetitively make him self misunderstand others. His wrong thoughts create more clutter and weakness. As a result, this type of misconception sets out continuous confusion. 

Q is in an everlasting mind-set of interpreting wrong ideas. In the middle of the novel, Fern- Flower tells Q another dream she had. It was in the same subject as the previous dream: The Dinosaur. Her dream was about a dinosaur that passed her house. She made her self look nice, looked outside the window to attract the dinosaur, but he did not look back- not even a glance, (104). In the dream, she felt sad and invisible. Q's thoughts about her dream is:

" This dream furnished me with a new key to the understanding of Fern- Flower's attitude towards me: the young creature had mistaken my shyness for disdainful pride. Now, when I recall it, I realize that all I had to do was maintain that attitude a little longer, make a show of haughty detachment, and I would have won her completely," (104).

This signifies that Q's belief upon her dream was that, he put forth everything he had. He felt that want she was saying is: he has done wrong. He was so forceful; he should have been invisible and assumes he has not been looking. Later, he should of came and they would have been together. When he says this, he is down shifting. He is decreasing he chance. Q feels that he has lost her. He messed up.  This emphasis that because the first dream was about him, he immediately thinks the dream is too. He does not think he dreams are not random dreams that she randomly wanted to tell him. She knew that she wanted to tell him because wrongful actions his done- obviously not. This delusion develops an emotional break down even-though the anxiety my not be real. He concludes they are. As a result, Q’s lost anticipations establish regretful feelings and turns into anger and direct outcomes.

Q's acrimony becomes out of control. His misunderstandings create a division between respect and rudeness. He starts to become blunt and tell Fern- Flower tells one more dream that creates extreme anger towards Q, and he does not hold it in. Fern- Flower's dream was about a dinosaur who funny and had all green. The dinosaur was getting teased then, she stepped fore ward and protected him. She took him away a fixed him up. She noticed he was ridiculous and was the saddest of all creatures, (107). This shows that because he thought the other two-dream s was about him, the last one must be too. After all the words she used to describe the scene, he states: 

"Why do you bore me with these dreams of yours? They get more childish every time! You can't dream anything but sentimental nonsense!"(107).

This exposes that he saw how negative each dream was and made a conclusion that they were all about him. When he says " Why do you bore me with these dreams of yours?” I do not believe he literally meant they were boring, but say this would make her feel bad. Q's anger made him turn blunt because of all the errors and wrong reactions he had towards Fern- Flower's dream. He did not feel any regret after his done so, because she did not have that feeling, so he did not either. As a result, misconception performs confusion towards the other characters, in this case, Fern- Flower.

What Has Gotten Into Me?

Since the start of last week, I have been reading a tone of freshman's, sophomore's, and Mr. Sutherland's post. Why? I do not know. I usually hated reading other people's work. I, undoubtedly, need an explanation why I like it all of a sudden. Its it because...ummm...still do not know.

Even though I have a lot of homework, after I publish this post will be clicking the mouse to my second tab; Google Reader!

Have I turned into a Weirdo?
What Has Gotten Into Me?

I Heart Google; You Are Entertaining Me!